I suspected things hadn't gone well when Duo came back from
his date early. I was positive things hadn't gone well when he didn't so
much as stick his head into the living room to tell me he was home.
While we don't exactly live in each other's pockets, we usually at least
inform each other of our comings and goings. And Duo knows that I generally
enjoy hearing about his evenings out. I'm not much of one for that sort
of thing myself, but Duo can be very entertaining when he's telling 'stories'.
I set my book aside when I heard him come in, expecting him to join me
in the living room of our shared apartment, but only heard him retreat
to the kitchen without a word. Listening intently, I heard the refrigerator
open and the unmistakable clink of a beer bottle as he pulled one out.
Not a good sign.
I decided to investigate when I realized he'd never even turned on the
"Duo?" I called quietly, as I stepped into the dimly lit kitchen.
"I'm sorry, Wufei," came his almost disembodied voice. "I
didn't mean to wake you." It was an evasion, at its worst; he knew
I never went to bed before midnight. And he had surely seen the light on
in the living room. I didn't push the point.
"I was up," I assured him and flipped on the light, catching
a moment's frown of irritation before it was smoothed away. He was sitting
at the table, his beer already half gone. "A bit late for that, isn't
it?" I moved toward the stove to put on the tea kettle.
"Not all that late, if you're still up," he replied, again skirting
I thought about my next line while I got down the tin of tea, watching
him as best I could, reflected in the surfaces around me. "Then," I
finally ventured. "You're back early?"
He sighed, taking another long swallow of his beer, and seeming to decide
to stop dancing quite so much. "Wufei-buddy... you don't want to hear
"If my partner is upset about it..." I said softly, and let
it hang there in the air, my back still to him as I lifted our mugs down
from the cabinet.
He snorted, "Your partner is an idiot."
"That has not been my experience," I chided, and he only took
another swallow from his bottle.
"Well, it's been mine," he grumbled, though I wasn't entirely
sure it was directed to my ears, as quietly as he said it.
The water came to a boil then and I turned off the burner. "I take
it that your evening didn't go all that well?"
He didn't answer right away, staying quiet so long that I thought maybe
he wouldn't speak. I practically had the tea ready before he finally said, "You're
I smiled, knowing that his defensiveness always kicks in after he's abandoned
denial. It's practically his last defense before he caves and talks. Because,
in the general scheme of things... we tell each other just about everything.
"I wouldn't need to pry if you'd just tell me what is bothering you
so much that you're attempting to lick the last drops of beer from that
He had been holding said bottle up, letting the last of it trickle out,
but at my words, set it down rather firmly on the table and scowled. "Drowning
one's sorrows requires the consumption of..." he began, but then cut
himself off. "Stop that," he commanded, his scowl turning to
I brought the tea to the table, pulling out a chair and sitting down beside
him. "I am not doing anything more horrendous than offering to listen
to a troubled friend."
He sighed, watching me set his empty bottle out of reach, and pushing
his mug of tea into its place. "It's just stupid shit, man... you
don't want to hear it."
A good strategist knows when to back off and try a different approach. "Drink
your tea," I scolded. "I flavored it the way you like."
He spared me a side-ways glance that spoke of both exasperation and gratitude,
and took the mug to cradle the warmth in his hands for a moment. "With
honey?" he asked, managing that tone he has that can make him sound
like an impish child.
I waited for him to take a sip before I confirmed the presence of the
ingredients he had to have to make tea palatable. "Honey, and the
orange... just the way you like it." I smiled, expected his return
smile... not expecting the way his expression almost fractured. He schooled
it quickly, but not before I'd seen a deeper pain than I thought we were
"Duo," I demanded, cynical mind leaping to a conclusion that
made my blood run cold. "That man you went out with tonight... he
didn't hurt you?"
His harsh bark of laughter did more to ease my mind than anything he might
have said. "Oh, please," he sneered, rolling his eyes and giving
me the look that begs to know where my mind has wandered off to. "Taro?
I thought you met him at the office party? He probably couldn't take out
old lady Parker from down the hall."
"Then what was that look for?" I prodded and knew from his sudden
sigh, that I was finally going to get something from him.
"I'm sorry, Fei," he said, staring into the depths of his mug
as if all the answers in the world were there. "I just... sometimes
I just feel like..." He couldn't seem to find the words and stumbled
to a halt.
I gave him a few minutes before reaching out to touch his arm. "Don't
make me break out the ginger snaps."
The old joke, Duo's Achilles heel of sweets, won me a laugh, but it sounded
strangled. "Oh no!" he tried, in his high-pitched Mr. Bill voice. "Anything
Denial.... Defensiveness... humor. I smiled at his lame joke and slipped
past his last shield. "My tea doesn't usually make you look like you
He sighed again, quite heavily; the sound one of surrender. He raised
the mug of tea and finally raised his eyes as well, moving that searching
gaze from the mug to me. Somehow asking me for the answers the depths of
my brew had not contained. "I want this," he said, voice little
more than a whisper, as though he felt embarrassed about what he was saying
and didn't want the world to overhear. "I want someone who loves me
to make me tea... and know just how to make it."
I didn't refute him. I understood what he meant, and he wasn't talking
about the love between partners. I understood that his words were not meant
to belittle what we felt for each other.
"This Taro?" I asked, remembering seeing the clerk around work.
He was a good looking man of mixed Japanese decent and I hadn't really
been surprised when Duo had shown an interest.
Duo abandoned his mug to the table so that he could free his hands to
bury his face there. "No..." he said. "He was never... I
mean, I don't really know why I kept trying..."
I had my own theories about that, but chose to keep them to myself. I
gave Duo another few minutes, but when nothing more than that was forthcoming,
I prodded gently. "So you... broke it off tonight?"
He blew out a breath and suddenly sat back in his chair, slouched down
and unconsciously putting some space between us. He was back to staring
at his mug of relatively untouched tea. "Guess you could say that.
We kind of... had an argument."
"About?" I asked, taking a sip of my tea and watching him closely.
"It's stupid," he glowered, evading again. It made me cautious;
Duo was usually to the point of spilling his guts by now. Once the topic
had been broached, he generally told me everything without much more prompting.
"Well," I tried. "So was that argument you and I had last
week about the laundry..."
It got the hoped for rise from him and he glared at me. "That was
just stupid guy shit, and you know it! This was different! The man is just...
mean spirited, you know? What in the hell is funny about something being
dead beside the road? There is nothing funny about a living creature dying.
Ever. I should have seen it before..."
He petered out again, his face slightly flushed, and we were back to the
I sighed, though I don't think he noticed. "Perhaps, my friend, you
should tell me about this evening from the beginning."
He looked up at me, and his eyes were just full of an ache that I didn't
quite now how to assuage. "It wasn't just the dead cat, Fei... it
was the damn jokes. I'd told him before how I hated them, but he just kept
on... it didn't matter to him that it bothered me. If a man has no more
respect than that..." He stopped again, taking a breath, seeming to
want to distill things down to as few words as possible. "I'm just
disgusted with myself that I kept seeing the guy so long. I knew he wasn't
the kind of person I could ever get really serious with, and it's just
so damn twisted that I kept trying just because..."
I knew before he was half through the line, that he wouldn't finish it.
I was well aware of his... tastes, it was one of those many things that
we'd talked about over the years, but it wasn't something he liked to speak
"I just feel so pathetic," he finally mumbled, and looked away
again, suddenly finding the tile on the kitchen floor quite fascinating.
"I never cared for him," I had to confess. "And I think
you're well rid of him. But there are plenty of..."
"No!" he snapped, his expression warring between pain and resolve. "Maybe
I wanted someone, wanted the kind of relationship Trowa and Quatre have,
but that's just a stupid pipe-dream!"
His switch to past-tense did not escape me. I would have reached out,
but he still had that buffer of space between us that would have been awkward
to bridge. "You don't mean that," I reproached gently, and watched
that small spark of anger desert him.
"I'm done, Fei," he whispered, sitting forward again, but it
seemed more that he was just curling in on himself as anything. "No
more. I have to face up to the fact that I love a man who doesn't love
me back. I thought I could let go of that, but I can't. I can't change
how I feel and I've got to stop trying to replace him.... Because it can't
be done. God; who in the hell could ever hold a candle to him? I have to
I have to admit that his words shocked the hell out of me. He'd not spoken
so bluntly about his unrequited feelings in ages, and the last time, he'd
been drunk enough that he'd also told me about the L2 plagues.
It had been the one and only time that I had ever seen Duo Maxwell cry.
I was moved to get closer to him, and left my chair to crouch on the floor
beside his. "Duo... don't say that. Just because you haven't found
His face was in his hands again, and he rubbed his forehead like he was
fighting a headache. "That's the thing... I have found someone. But
he hasn't found me. It's time I stopped lying to myself... I'm never going
to get over him."
I didn't know what to say, and just reached out, shocked when he flinched
"Duo?" I asked gently.
"I'm sorry," he breathed. "Not... right now, ok? I can't."
"I understand," I told him, and it was the truth, though I didn't
have to like it.
Then he was looking down at me and a ghost of that cocky grin crossed
his face. "Damn you... you did it again. How do you always manage
to drag this stuff out of me?"
I smiled in return, trying to make it into the touch he couldn't bare. "Maybe
because you need to let me drag it out?"
"I'm really sorry, man," he told me, looking embarrassed.
"Don't be," I said firmly. "You should never be sorry for
speaking what's on your mind. Just... are you all right?"
"I'm just kind of tired, I guess," he sighed, looking away again,
and rubbing his hand over his eyes.
I thought about the pain that he had tucked so neatly away, and had to
ask, "Not... despondent?" It was an old line, born in a discussion
about the unlikely use of the word by surviving relatives in cases of suicide.
I was not reassured by how long it took him to answer.
But then he gave me that look that tells me I've said something stupid,
and I all but sighed in sudden relief; bad... but not that bad.
"I think I'll be much better in the morning," he told me and
was suddenly rising from his chair. I knew it for the final evasion that
it was; I would get no more from him tonight. I wasn't happy, but we'd
been partners long enough that I knew to let him go. I stood when he did
and he cast a last look at me over his shoulder as he left the room. A
little sheepish. A little apologetic. "I think I'll go take a shower."
"All right... but you know I'll be up a while longer. If you want
He smiled and ducked his head. "I know. I really am sorry, man...
I guess it was just a long day."
I returned his smile, letting him push it aside. "It's all right." He
nodded once and then was gone.
I sighed; a little heavier than intended now that he was out of earshot,
and sat back down to finish my cooling tea. The apartment was quiet until
I heard the water begin to run in the bathroom.
"When are you going to tell him I'm here," Heero asked, coming
into the kitchen finally, and leaning in the doorway.
"I'm not," I told him blandly. "We are going to gather
your things and you're going to a motel for the night. You may surprise
us with your visit again in the morning."
He grunted and gave me that piercing gaze of his.
"Why didn't you just warn him I was in the apartment?" he asked
after seeming to think it over for a moment.
I sipped my tea and met his look with an appraising one of my own. "A
two-fold reason. By tomorrow morning, he would have bottled that up and
no amount of teasing or prying would have gotten him to unburden himself.
And he very much needed to say those things."
Heero blinked slowly, waiting for me, and finally prodding when I didn't
immediately slake his curiosity. "You said two-fold?"
I hesitated, understanding how much I was interfering where no interference
had been asked for. "As much as he needed to speak... I think you
needed to hear."
It was... interesting to see comprehension dawn in his ice blue eyes.
After a moment, those eyes flicked in the direction of the bathroom, just
as though he could see Duo through the intervening walls.
"Maybe I should... stay," he suggested after a long moment of
staring at the pattern of the wallpaper.
"No," I told him firmly. "He is too raw, and you... need
to think this through quite thoroughly."
He looked back at me, eyes narrowing slightly, a question without words.
"You could hurt him very badly without half trying," I informed
him, finding my voice just a bit colder than I'd intended to make it. "Don't
start down this path unless you're serious."
We stared at each other for a very long time.
"Do you love him?" Heero suddenly blurted.
"Quite fiercely," I replied unflinching. "But not the way
he wants. Duo is... my shield-mate, my partner. My life is his for the
asking, but I can't give him what he needs."
There was a touch of respect in the nod he gave me then. "I should
gather my things before he finishes," he said, and I knew we understood
"Yes," I agreed, and sipped at my tea while he went to retrieve
his duffle from the guest room.
I rose when I heard him coming back through the apartment. In the bathroom,
the water was still running, and I knew it would be for a while yet; when
troubled, Duo tends to take very long showers.
"You know he won't accept easily," I told Heero as he stood
with his hand on the knob of the front door.
His small smile held a sardonic edge, but I wasn't sure if it was for
my assumption about him, or my assessment of Duo.
"He is..." he said fondly, "cautious with his trust."
I inclined my head, pleased that he knew my partner at least that well.
He returned the nod with something a bit more formal, and we parted.
I returned to the kitchen, sat and finished my tea while Duo finished
his shower, waiting for the water to shut off before rising to rinse our
mugs and clean up.
I smiled, wondering almost idly as I sat our mugs side by side in their
place in the cabinet, if I would be packing one of them soon... or adding
Either way, there was most definitely the feeling in the air that life
was about to change. I hoped it wasn't just my romantic's soul that thought
that would be a good thing. For both their sakes.
I think the world of Duo Maxwell; he is my partner after
all. I had been hesitant after joining the Preventers when it had been
that we team up. I had not thought that we would work well together, but
things had worked out better than I could ever have hoped. Duo and I compliment
each other because we are complete opposites. We fill out each other’s
weaknesses. We understand each other’s strengths.
I had been surprised when our partnership had grown to include friendship,
and had ultimately ended up with us sharing an apartment. It had been another
thing that I had entered into with some trepidation, but a sudden change
of ownership of the building I had been living in, coinciding with Duo
a roommate to the horrors of marriage, had seemed too much like fate, and
we’d decided to give it a try.
It was another thing that had worked out beyond expectation.
But while I think the world of my partner, there are things about him that
drive me to distraction. Mainly his inability to believe in his own dreams.
Duo is a man who has lost a lot in his lifetime, and while his outgoing
personality and his ready smile are quite sincere, there is a place inside
him that always expects the important things in life to be taken from him.
Always expects, as he says, to suddenly roll snake eyes.
The weeks after Duo’s midnight confession to me had been… difficult.
It had seemed a rather uncomplicated thing, once I’d realized that
Heero had been harboring feelings of his own. It seemed like a simple misunderstanding
easily put to rights. How hard could it be for two mature, adults to figure
out they cared for each other?
I had not bargained on that cynical core in Duo’s bones. Had not counted
on him being half afraid to reach for what he wanted, once it had been offered
I will give Heero credit; once he understood that his own feelings were
quite deeply returned, he would not be deterred. I had half expected him
to give up in frustration at Duo’s sudden skittishness. But he showed
a side of himself I had never seen before, exhibiting an attentive patience
that did a great deal to relieve my mind about the budding relationship.
I had not honestly been sure the two of them could work it out. I should
have known that nothing would stop Heero Yuy once he set his mind on it.
Not even Duo Maxwell on the verge of panicking.
We went through a lot of tea in that month.
Things might have been less complicated if Heero hadn’t been living
with us, but he was newly back from God only knew where, with no place to
stay, and just beginning to think about signing on with the Preventers.
He’d ended up in our guest room.
I was pretty much the complication. I spent a lot of time in my own room
during that period, trying to at least give them the illusion of privacy.
But there is not a lot of privacy to be had for three grown men in a three
bedroom apartment. No matter how hard I tried, I was at least vaguely aware
of every milestone, every bit of foreword progress they made.
I helped Duo settle their plans when they decided to try an official ‘date’
together for the first time. Officiated over their first argument. Got to
tease Duo after their first kiss. Reassured. Encouraged. Just listened.
It rather put me in mind of the immovable object in the path of the unrelenting
force. Heero was the constant ocean waves, to Duo’s stone cliffs.
It was only a matter of time before Heero wore him down. Aided and abetted,
as he was, by Duo’s own desires.
It wasn’t a matter of winning Duo’s love… it was a matter
of winning his trust. In making him believe in the possibilities.
I was privy to far more information than I was entirely comfortable with,
but short of taking a motel room for an indeterminate amount of time, I
wasn’t exactly sure how to alleviate the situation. Besides, there
were times I wasn’t sure that Duo didn’t need me there. The
ever-present ear. The brewer of tea with honey. The touch-stone he seemed
to need while his life was threatening to change on him so drastically.
His changes have not always been good ones.
So, I suppose I should not have been caught quite so surprised when I found
myself aware of another of their landmark moments. A ‘first time’
far more intimate than an evening at the movies.
Have you ever seen a wild horse brought to hand? The trembling dance of
skin? The flick of attentive ears? A moment of stillness poised on the
between flight and capitulation?
Duo had been there for days. There were moments when I expected him to
flee the damn planet, and other moments when I expected him to wrap himself
Heero and never let go.
I had gone to my room early, leaving them the couch, the television and
some time alone together. There had been something in the air that seemed
none of my business, and I had taken my leave with my book in hand. I had
read for some hours, before turning the light out for the night, and not
long afterward had heard Duo in his own room.
It was a comforting sound, really. Duo’s room is right next to mine
and by virtue of the layout, had the wall between us been gone, I could
have reached out and touched his bed. After a year of sharing an apartment
with my partner, I found the sounds of him retiring to be a soothing thing,
some part of my mind always registering that he was home and safe, and all
was right in my world.
But it didn’t take long that night to realize the sounds I heard were
far from the normal ones. Didn’t take long to realize that Duo was
I froze, pulled quite abruptly from the fuzzy edge of sleep I had been
drifting on, utterly unsure of what to do. If they were in the midst of
I thought they were in the midst of, I did not want to disturb them. Not
for anything short of Armageddon. But… I really didn’t want
to stay where I was, less then two feet from a place I suspected they were
going to be any moment.
I could hear their voices, soft as they made them, though I couldn’t
make out the words. Heero’s was a deep rumble, a tone that spoke of
desire wrapped firmly in an endless patience. Duo’s was almost breathless,
full of that poised sense of the moment. A strange mixture of need and uncertainty.
I stared blankly at nothing, aware that they were probably right in front
of me, through the intervening wall, and the dark. My mind supplied me
unbidden with an image of Heero stroking his fingers along Duo’s jaw
line until he coaxed him into a kiss. And indeed, they grew quiet for a
I felt very much like a trapped animal. I began to slowly turn over, painfully
aware of every rustle of my sheets, of every tiny sound the bedsprings
It seemed to take an eternity just to achieve a place where I was looking
up at the ceiling instead of the wall.
There was the sound of something dropping to the floor, and I honestly
just didn’t want to know what it was. Duo made a noise that was a bit louder
than I suspect he’d intended to. A soft cry that spoke of involuntary
reaction, and I felt myself blushing despite myself. I silently cursed the
thin walls that had never been a problem before.
Heero spoke again; Duo’s name, I thought, and then something soothing.
Something in that unrelenting, serene tone of his. The wave washing over
the rock again.
The rock was giving way. It was there in the quaver of Duo’s voice.
There in the rising edge of need in his tone. I heard the creak of Duo’s
bed as they settled on it, and used the sound to cover my own continued
turn, obtaining the edge of my own bed with a sigh of relief.
But then there was quiet behind me and I froze again, afraid they’d
heard me and realized just how much I was able to hear. I held my breath,
waiting. I couldn’t help worrying about how much harm it would do
to their fledgling romance, if this moment were ruined. There was a creak
of bedsprings, another sound of something dropping lightly to the floor,
and Heero’s voice sounding… very unlike him.
Duo cried out to God then, voice a shaky thing that he was trying to control.
I used the moment to roll out of bed, exalted when I obtained my feet without
making a sound.
Once out of the damn bed, I knew I could escape without alerting them to
my awakened state. Behind me, on the other side of that thin wall, their
voices were mingling in a soft harmony of pants and sighs. Heero sounded
almost aggressive, almost possessive. And Duo sounded… passionate.
And somehow vulnerable.
Duo Maxwell is my partner. The man I trust at my back and at my shoulder,
and I really just did not want to hear him like that. Did not want to hear
him so… exposed.
I escaped, face a flaming red, just as the sound of their panting began
to take on a rhythm. I was more than pleased when a strategic retreat to
the living room bought me the hoped for silence. Relief was a thing that
let me breathe again.
I had fled without much planning, and found myself without book or other
distraction, so I settled on the couch in front of the television. I muted
the sound and simply watched the flicker of some movie, trying to erase
images from my mind that I would really have rather not had.
The thought of Heero rising above my partner…
The picture of Duo sprawled across his bed in abandon…
The image of sweat-slick flesh…
The sounds of those soft cries…
This may sound strange, but I just don’t want to think of the man
that has had my back in more than one fire fight, in that way. Not sounding
so completely vulnerable, so totally unsure of himself. It awoke in me a
sense of protectiveness that would not be healthy for our partnership. It’s
funny… I had never understood the Preventers’ rules against
spouses working together on the job. Listening to the sound of my partner’s
voice that night, the reasoning had suddenly become crystal clear to me.
It took an hour of the History channel with no sound, before it began to
fade from my mind, and I started to feel drowsy again. I was just debating
the possibility of turning off the television and attempting to sneak back
into my room, when a noise in the hall alerted me to another’s presence.
To this day, I’m not sure if Duo had come looking for me, or if he
were simply on his way to the kitchen and saw the light of the television.
I saw him hesitate in the hall, before slipping into the room to stand
leaning against the wall by the doorway. He was wearing nothing but a pair
so low slung I suspected he might have snagged Heero’s in the dark.
His hair was as much down as it was in its usual braid, and he looked altogether
frazzled. I couldn’t help smiling at several of the more inappropriate
lines that popped into my head. Instead, I simply said, ‘Hey.’
‘Hey,’ he replied, sounding a little subdued, though I couldn’t
read his expression in the faint light from the television.
I cocked my head and looked at him anyway, knowing that I would be easier
for him to see, as I was in front of the light source instead of behind
it. ‘Are you… all right?’
He hesitated a long moment, suddenly looking at the floor and murmuring
so softly that I almost missed it, ‘I’m… scared, Fei.’
I’m afraid I was on my feet before my mind was quite done putting
his words together with the information I already had. ‘If he hurt
you…’ I began, but he was shaking his head before I’d
finished letting the half formed thought escape my mouth. I instantly felt…
foolish; I knew Heero better than that.
‘Nothing like that,’ he said, looking up at me. ‘I just…
I’ve never felt this much before. It feels like… like my chest
is going to explode… like I can’t contain it…’
He stuttered to a halt and I felt myself relax. I hoped he couldn’t
see the smile I just couldn’t contain. ‘What is it, then, my
He sighed. He shifted. He closed his eyes and let his head rest against
the wall behind him. I could see the rise and fall of his Adams-apple
as he swallowed. I waited for him to get it sorted out.
‘It feels too good to be true,’ he finally told me, and I wanted
to sigh right out loud, but didn’t. That expectation he has that things
will slip though his fingers again. ‘I’m afraid of the price.’
‘The price?’ I prompted, taking a few steps so that I was out
of the glow of the television and could see a little better.
‘Everything has a price,’ he told me, a world of bitterness
behind that statement. ‘I’m just afraid the price is too high.’
It was the most disconcerting thing in the world to hear the
man, who, not six months prior, had crossed between two buildings
the ground on nothing but a guy wire during a hostage situation,
use the word ‘afraid’.
It says something that I’m not sure I understand, that he guards his
heart closer than he guards his life.
‘Duo…’ I began, but stopped when I heard him take a sudden
breath, knowing he was about to say something that he’d had to work
himself up to.
‘I don’t want the price to be you, Fei,’ He blurted and
I’m afraid all I could do was blink at him for a second.
‘Me?’ I repeated, not quite able to follow his reasoning.
‘As much as I love Heero,’ he said, seeming to find his words
now that the subject was broached. ‘I don’t want to lose what
you and I have. I don’t want to lose my partner.’
I couldn’t help the soft snort, and could only hope it didn’t
sound condescending. I moved a little closer, so that I could see his face
better in the dim light. ‘You have nothing to fear from me,’
I assured him and could tell he was looking at me intently.
‘You know this has to change things,’ he said, testing my words.
‘Of course,’ I smiled. ‘But you having Heero in your arms
won’t change the fact that you have me at your back.’
I thought, for one horrifying moment, that he was going
to burst into tears, but he didn’t. ‘Thanks, man,’ he murmured.
I chuckled and reached to touch his shoulder. He took
it as an offer, and I suddenly found myself tightly
‘I… love you too,’ he blurted, voice rushed and tight.
I gave him a quick squeeze and he drew away rather suddenly, looking
down as though he’d just noticed his feet for the first time. ‘I
know,’ I told him, and knew he was blushing furiously. I couldn’t
help another chuckle, understanding that the conversation was driven by
the emotional upheaval of his… evening with Heero. ‘You’re
going to hate yourself for this moment, come tomorrow,’ I teased,
and he looked up at me quite earnestly.
‘I know,’ he whispered. ‘That’s why I had to come
say it tonight.’
I grunted, a bit surprised, and he turned away
to head back to his room. To head back to his lover.
away, and grinned at the disheveled picture he
It had all seemed such a simple thing, when they’d started down this
road, but then I suppose nothing was ever simple when it involved Duo.
‘Maxwell,’ I called at the last minute, and he stopped with
his hand on the doorknob of his room, to look back at me. ‘You’re
right about the changes though, and the first one comes tomorrow. We’re
moving your damn room to the one across the hall.’
I thought he would choke, but he recovered quickly,
flashing me a grin of gratitude before disappearing
into his room.
I figured the
way to not
let his new situation affect our own relationship
was to stop thinking
of him differently. The open, vulnerable Duo who
sighed in the dark and called
out in need… belonged to Heero. The tough, decisive Duo, who could
look square down the muzzle of a 45 and damn well grin while he did it… belonged
I could share if Heero could. The rest was up to
I decided to go make some tea.
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